The other day my teenage son’s friend was joking around and told me I listen to grandma music. I wasn’t listening to music at the time, so I’m not sure where the assertion came from. In fact, I’m not sure what grandma music is, but I wouldn’t say I listen to it.

In reality, I tend to listen to emotional and depressing(ish) music. I don’t know why, but it’s what speaks to me.  Maybe I’m more depressed than I realize? Probably true.  I feel like music with a driving rhythm and powerful, raw lyrics express my nature. I’ve often felt like I don’t fit in musically with the people I associate with. Maybe that seems like nothing, and it’s not in the sense that I don’t base my friendships off of musical preferences. But it is in the sense that music is such a big part of who I am, how I identify myself, and most often I end up feeling like I don’t really fit in with the people I do associate with. I know there are others out there that appreciate the music I do.

Do you ever feel like you are in the middle of two worlds? Lost somewhere in between? One foot  is in the responsible adult, church-going, family-raising, home-owning + etc world. The other part of me is simply an artist with a heart yearning to live out my life as artistically and authentically as possible. For the most part, I haven’t figured out how to make my two worlds jive, not that they are so different, but the people in the one world tend to be different from the people in the other, so I spend most of my life living in the responsible adult world (which is probably where I should be). But music is a big part of where I live out my artistic, soulful feelings.

So today I thought I’d share one of my current favorite songs to listen to:

Daughter – Youth.

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